Basically, it comes down to the fact that things are a bit hectic. I don't even pretend to do my homework any more, because it takes all my effort just to attend class. My diet (not for weight loss, just general eating type diet) has gone down the drain. I barely do any regular excersises, forget a workout. Since being promoted to my demoted position, I have a crap load of responsibility, but no physical aspect to my work. My tummy pouch and reduced upper body strength are tribute to that.
Graveyard is like this, though, I find for many people. Graveyard is the bane of the body's natural sleeping pattern. I called in sick yesterday, not only because I am sick (which my non-stop pounding headache and body aches and mild fever can attest to), but also because I am simply tired. It's like, I sleep and I sleep but I cannot get enough energy to do anything. No, I don't think I'm depressed. This happened before, a little later in terms of length working graveyard, but it did happen. Unless I am exhausted, I cannot achieve a deep sleep during the day. It turns you into a zombie.
All I can do about it is hope either,
a) my co-workers in day and swing shifts are fired, and therefore I can have dayshift (the guy on days has the least amount of seniority, and is there so our manager can personally supervise him, and the gal on swing has the most, and covets day shift). It has been threatened before, so I can still dream, right? Though I really don't want them in a position of difficulty...
b) Take a demotion and go back to running a machine. Did I mentioned I HATE BEING A MACHINE OPERATOR?!?!?! Guh! I'll go back to packing again, but that's like, a triple demotion, and a dollar less in pay. At least I have some chance of maybe making over $11/hr in this position. One day...soon...maybe? A girl can dream, right?
c) I can find a day shift job making the same amount somewhere else. Again, a girl can dream, right?
Obviously, c is what I am looking for. I'll work weekends, I'll work odd shifts, 12s or 10s, just let me make $1500/mo after taxes, and I'll be good. How can that be that difficult?
This is where I am right now. It is not a happy place.
I know, I know, it's been a long time since an update. I also know that the last one was more than a bit pathetic. Gulp. Be gentle on me please!